My body is aching...
Friday, March 28, 2008 / 4:54 PM
26/03/08
My whole body is aching so much.. so much so that sitting & standing both makes me super uncomfortable..argh!!!..yes, all thanks to the classes I had on Tuesday.. Kickboxing instructor(SHE) could not make it for lesson..so her lesson was taken over by body sculpt instructor(HE). Personally I don't enjoy the kickboxing classes by HE cos he is more into doing body sculpting steps even in the kickboxing class. The steps are so different from what we learnt in kickboxing. Because he took over the class on tues, I had done more den an hr of body sculpting exercise & i'm aching all over now.. (-.-")
The STress mE!!
Tuesday, March 25, 2008 / 11:21 PM
shi wo xiang tai duo mah? huo xu ba..
Been feeling stress & depress lately.. There's so much inside me that I dun noe hw or who to tell..even if i said, will there be anyone who can understand.. Guess, it still drill dwn to me thinking too much.. maybe ba.. maybe i reali tink to much & too far..i've tried hard not to think, i just din suceed..
The more anxious i am to solve things..the more wrongs i feel i m doing.. but seriously i dun noe wat was those that i've done are wrong.. realise i'm starting to confuse wats rite & wats wrong..
my long suffering day...
Saturday, March 22, 2008 / 1:50 AM
21/03/08
A holiday I've been looking forward to..Nothing special..but because of this holiday, we have long weekend.I was feeling so tired the whole week..so looking forward to this long weekend only to spend the holiday groaning in pain from morning till evening time..Ar..r...r...r...gh!!!.. all my plans were spoilt!!
Was suppose to mit ex-dcs colleagues to suat hsewarming.. got up around 10+am.. but the pain came..around 12+.. tot pain subside alittle..got myself dress up & ready to leave the hse..pain attack again.. GOSH!! the whole afternoon my stomach seems to b having a battle.. it was a long suffering day.. Pop 5 pain killer.. only the last 2 seems to work.. till now i still shiver at the tot of the sufferings today..
was suppose to mit ex proximity colleagues for dinner..i did not turn up too.. 3/4 of the day was in bed.. hiazs.. today is reali the worst & longest pain i ever had in my entire life.. its unbearable.. :( Really freaking out at the tot of it..
Finally around 8+pm i left home for suat's hse warming.. Suat.. so sorry for turning up so late.. ur sofa is really comfortable..haha.. shall pop over ur hse often. keke.. all the best to u & hubby for ur new hse.. =)
Great workout...
Wednesday, March 19, 2008 / 5:06 PM
I've survived the classes yesterday!!!
Woo Hoo... Woo Hoo.. Woo Hooooooooo...oooooooo...oooooo. haha..
I can say that I had a great workout yesterday. Really a great one.. I came out of the sports council feeling so light-hearted..I love this aftermath feeling..Thou body is aching nw, but it's a gd sign huh? It shows i've done enuf exercise? hee.. i hope so..alrite maybe afterall the 2 hrs of exercise wasn't enuf for me.. Guess what? I wipped out all the left over rice & dishes for dinner.. haha.. it was a BIG dinner for me.. it was 10pm when i was taking dinner..that goes the effort of going for those classes.. *guilty!! ..but i was real hungry.. =p*
The body sculpting class is reali a test of one's endurance..Instructor was saying for a start, he is not giving us a tough time..So ytd class can be considered light. That freaks me out alittle. haha..esp when I feel otherwise..Was trying not to over exercise myself too much ytd during the 1st class, cos I was constantly reminding myself I've another class later..better store some energy before i fell flat on the floor..Age is catching up..haha.
Overall the 1st bodysculpt lesson was fun..The instructor is pretty humourous & entertaining. All of us were laughing while exercising..Guess that makes the lesson even more enjoyable.. Shall see hw things goes as the lesson continues.. =) *keeping finger cross..* ( -_-")
starting of new class tml..
Monday, March 17, 2008 / 3:23 PM
Super Mon blues + alittle mood swing today..sitting in the corner of the office having nothing to do worsen my mood..haha.. well,I'm hard to please huh?too much work, i complain..no work i complain..wahaha..well,today i just hope to do some work.. dun noe y..I must be MAD!!keke..the Account Manager that has been bugging me is on MC today..Gosh.. I hope he remember what i've highlighted to him last wk..I've told him beforehand that I will be leaving office on the dot tml when he told me there's a site to be lived on wednesday..hmmmm..today he is on MC..tml i'l be deadmeat rushing amendments for him. Hope he don't spoil my plan for tml.. Omi Omi Omi..
Itchy backside me signed up another class for tues..It is body sculpting..haha..class starts at 7pm,followed by my kickboxing at 8pm..erm..eh..if u r doubting my stamina..that is normal..haha..i myself am doubting it too..i am even tinking..will i leave halfway thru the kickboxing class.wahaha..scully i flags white flag & juz leave.. hmmmm.. hope not..
body sculpt has been a class i've been aiming ever since i saw what was learnt..its kind of toning with weights..well well..suddenly that sets mi tinking..wat if my muscle gets bigger? wahaha..Big muscle in a fat body, with a round face & 2 big ears!! gosh..looks cute issnt it? haha...
kind of excited for classes tml..yet, worried that i cant take it..heehee.. Contradicting huh? hmmmmm...
not feeling good...
Friday, March 14, 2008 / 5:32 PM
我好纳闷啊！不知道为什么! hiazs...
心情很不好！！ 救命啊！
I'm mentally drain by the mood i'm having lately..
Dun noe y..heart been feeling so pain inside.. its hard to describe the feeling..
hao xing ku ah..
Anyway, weekend coming.. hope its gg to b a gd one for mi..
happy weekend pipol.. =)
The article "Nobody's perfect"
Read this article from the paper.. Found it well written..
Some of what was written sounded so so true..
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Nobody's perfect
WELL, we had a good run. But every winning streak has to end eventually.
We won the bid to host the inaugural Youth Olympics, beating out no less than the default villain in all those old James Bond movies - the Russians.
We won the right to stage the first ever Formula One race at night (you know, to avoid Electronic Road Pricing charges).
We won the second Asian edition of The Amazing Race with a guy who sounds like Marlee Matlin speaking Singlish.
Heck, we even won the first and likely only Asian Idol, thanks to pretty boy Hady Mirza and a quirky voting system.
But - and oh, what a big 'but' - we lost a terrorist with a bum leg.
I guess nobody's perfect.
Even the American football team, the New England Patriots, were only 'perfect' - winning 18 straight games - until the Super Bowl, when they were stomped by the New York Giants.
Even the No. 1 tennis player in the world, Roger Federer, lost the Australian Open to a guy whose name I've given up trying to remember.
And I have been known to misspell a word on occation.
But it's good to lose now and then. It keeps us humble. It's like that old Avis line: We're not No. 1, so we try harder.
So Mas Selamat Kastari escaped using the old 'I need to go to the toilet' line. Doesn't anyone guarding the Whitley Road Detention Centre watch movies?
ADMIT MISTAKES & MOVE ON
Okay, we just have to suck it up and move on. Admit our mistakes and learn from them.
But have we?
When we were told the fugitive had a limp, I felt sorry for every Malay adult male in Singapore who stubbed his toe that day.
And then we were told he limps only when he is walking fast.
What is frustrating is that Mas Selamat's face is so commonplace. Why couldn't he have had some evil-looking scar or an eye-patch or something?
I can think of at least three acquaintances who vaguely resemble Singapore's most wanted man. If not for their non-limp...
And that is why I would be reluctant to call the police if I think I have spotted Mas Selamat.
For one thing, I would most likely be wrong.
On top of that, I would be wrong in a manner that might make me appear racist.
But what if my fear of being political incorrect allows a terrorist to escape? Well...
Chances are, the guy I spotted wasn't Mas Selamat anyway.
Just some unfortunate Malay adult male who happened to stub his toe and walked really fast on the wrong day.
Like I said, nobody's perfect.
It has never been easy to forget incidents.....
Tuesday, March 11, 2008 / 3:02 PM
how shld i describe my life lately?
hmmmm..a life full of decisions..life full of different feelings and emotions at different part of the day..brain has not stop working the moment i woke up.. as usu, endless qns of why? swirl in my mind..there are no ans to it..the angel & devil are debating like nobody business in my mind. its such a mental torture..I stop myself frm doing things my heart tell me to cos it brings hurt to others..but at times my logic mind set me thinking..was i right not showing hw my heart feel? will pple understand the inner feeling for my action? or wil dey take me for granted that i'm just so tamed?
i was asked to forget.. yes, forgeting abt the whole incident could be the best. but fact is its not sth that can be fogetten easily..There are things one will never forget in their entire life..am i being negative? I don't know.. I guess i feel very insecure..I can predict that soon they might ask me to do things which i don't wish to.. I hope they understand that this time round i will want to do things in my way. not being force anymore..hope dey can understand the impact on me this time round is serious..I dun wish to hurt anyone.. i know dey r nice to me now.. i'l b sad & guilty if i still cant forget the incident & worst if i cant do wat dey hope..argH!!!.. its just so depressing thinking of it every now & then..mayb i think too much..but tat could be because i know them too well to expect what's coming next....
Kelly told me this.. No one can help me except me myself. An advice i often said to pple.. suddenly when things happen, i forgotten abt it totally..it sets me tinking abt her sentence the whole of last night. yes, its my part to bring myself up again. I've not suceed any yet..
Still trying..........
The plead that will never be heard........
Wednesday, March 5, 2008 / 6:09 PM
Were you at my bedside b4 going off to work today? were you sad, guilty on the sentence u passed to me last night?It was an unfair sentence..I din expect you could be so unfair..I guess I dun hate you for ur action..but i will not forget what u did. u made me change my impression towards you now.I know u dote on me,I know u care,I know..i realy know..but y the unfair sentence? i din start the whole episode..I thought u know me well,but what u said last nite made me feel that you can be such a stranger to me.. ur words made mi realised u could have been tolerating me so much tat all burst out together..
SUrprisingly..i wasn't really sad today..I dun noe hw i shld feel..I'm starting to feel confused & lost instead..I'm dun noe hw to face u..i dun noe hw anymore..Guess i was really utterly disapointed with u. u din even give me the chance to explain myself..Guess all i noe now is hw much i hate the beast. yes, i HATE him to the core..dun bother to come tell me hw much he care & concern about me..to me, nothing matters now..
I'm guilty for the hurt i bring..I'm glad u give mi the sentence in some ways.if that sentence was to be given to the beast instead..gues i will be self blaming myself now..haha..hilarious!! maybe i shld even thank you for waking me up with all the punches u gave.
wo de xing sheng?
how will friends react if i change to a stuck up, despicable person? a liu qing bu ren & self centered slut?haha..i was tinking to myself today maybe it wun be that bad afterall?
*maybe some of you have aready feel that i m what i've just mentioned above..*
keke..i starts to wonder..what will one get for being nice? NOTHING..yes..BASICALLY NOTHING except being BULLY..except for being UNFAIRLY TREATED..pple dun see the goodness in you if u r constantly nice. pple will only see tat is natural for you being that way..but when it comes to a BAD person being nice out of the blue..pple will appreciate it double or triple times on the goodness..that's life issn't it?
can i for once in my life not tink of anything & anyone?
can i for once do wat i wish to do?
not taking in consideration of hw hurtful my action will be?
Can I....I....I....I....?
ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Lunar Birthday.. =)
Monday, March 3, 2008 / 4:36 PM
Today is my lunar birthday..
Gosh,din noe that it came so fast.. tot it is wk after this.. hmmmmmm,i've yet to have a cake of my own with candles on it. this yr 1 of my bday wish is to have a whole cake(the choice of mine @ 1 of the cake shop i used to buy cakes for pple..) with candles representing my age on it..I've requested choosing the cake for myself & gota be brought frm that confectionary.. but but......time just flies so fast, we were so busy with house thingy, family outings etc that my bday cake was given a missed!! haha..
i love to have whole cake on birthday with candles on it to blow & take photos with..that day was flipping some old photos..saw some birthday celebration photos realise those photos were meaningful as we grow older..it shows the growing process of ownself.. =)
The most memorable birthday i ever had was my 21st celebration.the 1st time i had a party..some of the happenings in the chalet stil stays fresh in my mind till today..seriously, i was glad i had a chalet party but the only thing i regreted was not having the chalet decorated with birthday banners & balloons. haha.. gues i was just so deprived frm birthday party & cake with candles when young..
*of cos at this age, i wun wan candles(of exact age) on the cake being presented to me in the public..age is a secret nw..haha..*
oh ya,a fren ever tel me this which i find it pretty meaningful. He was telling me birthday shld b celebrated with parent or rather the mother.Cos she was the one suffering most of the hardship bringing us to this world. Quite true..issnt it? =) so everyone out there..during birthday, while enjoying urself to the fullest..dun forget about ur dearest MUMMY too ya.. =)
