helpless me....
Tuesday, September 18, 2007 / 6:10 PM
the day started off as a happy one (except to realise the fact tat my pants were kind of tight..time to get new one? haha..) a fren commented that i look gorgeous in the green dress. Thanks. Gues its the 1st time the word gorgeous is being used on me.. the feeling is just so different.. nvr know tat the word can be used on me.. hee.. i don't find myself gorgeous, juz maybe ladylike? girle?.. haha.. i got more demure photos noe..wanted to post here. but scare frens tot i zi lian..wahaha.. anyway, reali thanks for tat comment, nvr expect it esp tat word.. it cheered my day alot.. =)
Isabelle just returned frm her US trip.. got me the figurine i've asked her to get for me..It's not sold in singapore..din expect to see her today..thought she will only back in office tml..hee.. she left it on my table b4 i reached office..so sweet of her,make it seems like a present left for me huh..hee..Really appreciate her help, knowing the stress involved in bringing the figurine back..
hee..thanks gal.. =)
lovely?
but the day took a turn in the aftrnoon.. it left me with a heavy heart thru out the day.. i juz feel so helpless..have always been ther advising frens when dey need. but when it comes to family matter.. i realise i'm at my wits end..cant help feeling sad & helpless.. advising & being ther is no longer enuf..the feeling of being sandwiched.. witnessing people being hurt yet there juz seems so little u can help or so little u can do to console them is so so painful..was it becos i'm not doing enuf, cos i was timid & useless?? i started to get confuse with my tot & action.. I noe there are things that i've done that's wrong.. but then again what's right & wrong?
"Should we b putting our hapiness infront of others or vice versa?" I challenged someone with this insight and interpreted from the conversation that the person chose the former.There is no correct answer for this qn, its oni the perception of life each of us have... agree?
hiazs..if only life can be simpler.. :(
Great place to chill...............
Friday, September 14, 2007 / 4:29 PM
Finally went up to Altivo Bar at jewel box..Had been wanting to try dining or drinking ther. My wish finally came true. The price is abit steep to me..But the ambience is wonderful..Gues the view will be much better b4 the sky turns dark.. Ji lang mang yi xia.. hwee u weet!.. haha..
A real great place to chill.. i want to go up again but hopfully b4 nightfall.. haha.. i'l give 3 wows for tat place.. WOW WOW WOW.. haha...
Our drinks & food..
Attracted by the name Cinderalla on the menu, i ordered a glass. It tasted more like orange juice when its written there a mixture of orange, lemon & pineapple juice.. nothing special..
Bao had ice kopi.. *bor..r..r...ing.. opps..haha..
*4give him.. he slpy lah after toking to chui mian da shi (Tiffany Ong...).
Sui ba.. sui ba.. sui ba.. haha..*
Price :
Cinderalla : $12
Ice kopi : $7.5
Chicken Wings : $12
See the view behind? haha..erm.. oki, the pic is abit dark..haha..actually gota be thankful to 1 of the waiter there. He took tis photo for us with the help of a stand he found,use it to b the tripod stand & do a night mode shot. Thou the photo is abit blur.. but was contended with the way it turns out.. =)
Its sad when you don't know what you want in life.....
Wednesday, September 5, 2007 / 10:37 PM
Everything seems to go downhil for me lately.. oR shld i blame it on the negative ions in my brain causing me to look at things so negatively..Somehow, i juz cant get my mood up.. Been trying my best to console, advise myself, chatting with frens & saying it out.. but mood s.hw still the same.. DIE! wat has got into me???
after 30 days of anxious wait.. Result of NIE interview finally arrived! the moment i got hm, Dad was telling me excitedly tat my letter had arrived. Rushed to my rm, opened the letter, i knew more or les the result was negative..The letter was so thin..haha.. BingO! i got it right.I din get thru.. Dad looked at mi & asked. i told him i failed.. suddenly he seemed disapointed. haha.. it was contridicting, still rem the 1st time i told them i applied for NIE.. dey seemed to b stunned, asked worryingly, "m i sure i want tis as my career"..& the feeling dey gave wasnt tat supportive (Dey kind of worried I cant cope..).. but yet, when the result of the failed interview was told to them.. dey seemed disapointed & mum even encouraged me to try again..haha...
Well well... was disapointed with myself for failing it.. but when i got the result.. there was a sigh of relief for 10mins? haha..relief cos i had been thinking for the past few days (b4 the result was out)..had been imagine myself presenting infront of the class.. it reali freak me out loads.. hiazs.. useless me!! The saddest part for tis whole interview is nt failing it but rather its about me not knowing wanting wat i want for my career. sad issnt it? the wait is over, funi as it may seems.. wait has becum part of my daily life.. nw, nothing to look forward when home. hahaha...
