Its sad when you don't know what you want in life.....
Wednesday, September 5, 2007 / 10:37 PM
Everything seems to go downhil for me lately.. oR shld i blame it on the negative ions in my brain causing me to look at things so negatively..Somehow, i juz cant get my mood up.. Been trying my best to console, advise myself, chatting with frens & saying it out.. but mood s.hw still the same.. DIE! wat has got into me???
after 30 days of anxious wait.. Result of NIE interview finally arrived! the moment i got hm, Dad was telling me excitedly tat my letter had arrived. Rushed to my rm, opened the letter, i knew more or les the result was negative..The letter was so thin..haha.. BingO! i got it right.I din get thru.. Dad looked at mi & asked. i told him i failed.. suddenly he seemed disapointed. haha.. it was contridicting, still rem the 1st time i told them i applied for NIE.. dey seemed to b stunned, asked worryingly, "m i sure i want tis as my career"..& the feeling dey gave wasnt tat supportive (Dey kind of worried I cant cope..).. but yet, when the result of the failed interview was told to them.. dey seemed disapointed & mum even encouraged me to try again..haha...
Well well... was disapointed with myself for failing it.. but when i got the result.. there was a sigh of relief for 10mins? haha..relief cos i had been thinking for the past few days (b4 the result was out)..had been imagine myself presenting infront of the class.. it reali freak me out loads.. hiazs.. useless me!! The saddest part for tis whole interview is nt failing it but rather its about me not knowing wanting wat i want for my career. sad issnt it? the wait is over, funi as it may seems.. wait has becum part of my daily life.. nw, nothing to look forward when home. hahaha...
